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Sunday: 8/6; My world just got its salad tossed again ... My enemies managed to break through my electronic backdoor and snatched what paltry shells I'd managed stash. My buddy laughed and pointed out that adversity was my mother of invention. So I guess he means that since my life is once again in a state of unpleasantness, I will create better art. A word to the wise: When life starts getting easy, watch your back. I was rummaging through a chard cardboard box a few days ago. This is one of several blackened containers salvaged from my house burning of 7/7/1995. Some of these boxes contain nothing but ruined stinking shit ... That's one reason I have not gone through them all yet. It's a little depressing to find my artworks and collections from the past burned and ruined by the fireman's water. This box however, did contain some drawings that were salvageable. There are several of interest such as the scribble placed up in the P.S. section for 08/05. Below is a drawing I found that's accompanied by an angry little 'poem'. The day was 06/26/1981, almost 20 years ago. I can not recall anything about the day ... but the drawing and the 'poem' that went with it tells a tale. Poem and Drawing from 06/26/1981
... 07/31/2000 ... TALK: I'm old and my muscles are deteriorating at a disgusting and disturbing rate. If I was to do no exercise I would quickly fall ill and die. Thus, I have no choice but to drag myself a loathfull place of churlish dolts; 'THE GYM'.
My least favorite person at the gym is the 'Gym Beast'. Are you a Gym Beast? Do you know what a Gym Beast is? It's a fucking oversized rude moron who hangs around at the 'health Club' all day thinking he's impressing everyone with his, (or sometimes her), big, muscular, sexy body. My take on you guys is that you are closet homos who are too insecure to compete in an arena of brains or talent. So you use your bodies rather than your minds to compete in a world obsessed with butt flexing and posing in front of mirrors. You stink and you usually have bad skin and BAD hair. GB's are one of the more obnoxious manifestations of our culture of indifference and nonidentity. Smelly fat-assed morons with a brutish attitude ... A Bully overcompensating for your 'justifiable' feelings of inadequacy. Like YOU are gonna kick MY ass for looking at you, which is exactly what you want everybody in the stink factory to do, ASSHOLE! You leave your little sweaty towels and water bottles on the weight machines so other people have to touch your germ infested crap in order to take our rightful turn! FUCKING RUDE ARROGANT PUNKS! Of course, most people in the gym are too spineless to challenge a G.B. So they get away with dominating several machines at once like monkeys rubbing their feces on objects to mark their territory. And I'm flabbergasted by your stupid meaningless fad tattoo's! Don't you people have a fucking mind of your own? Do you have to follow every fad without thinking? The most insecure Gym Beasts always have scary jail house 'facsimile tattoo's' to add to their overall look. If you want to be scary, cut your fucking dick off and implant a power drill! I'm sure that would go over well with the sinuous no- bodyfat fried chicken blister skin 'Gym Beastettes' ! I have nothing against trying to keep your body from falling away to mush ... BELIEVE ME, The ONLY reason I endure going into these mad houses of sweaty gross humans is my fear of becoming a vulnerable cripple. I was an overweight and out of shape child who was constantly tormented by the other Children. I understand the importance of staying fit better than most ... So I march off with the rest of the insects to the relative safety of a place where I can PAY to spend a few hours of agony and embarrassment. I resent PAYING to be tortured by the GB's and I resent being subjected to the fucking lame ass music they play over and OVER and OVER at these grunt dungeons! If I hear that meaningless, retched pop song by Cher one more time I may go berserk and attack the nearest Health Beast I see! ... LIVING IN LA VEDA STUPIDIA! OH, and one more thing, 'WHAZZZUP! ... WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ...WHAZZZUP! ... OK! OK! OK! Please! PLEASE! STOP! I have NO IDEA WHAZZZUP! ...OK!? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAZZZUP! So please stop asking "WHAZZZUP!" cuz you're making me feel really fucking creepy and I think I need to kill something.
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... 07/30/2000 ...
TALK: Saturday morning ... I missed my cartoons! :( My head feels like somebody took a fucking sledge hammer to it. My eyes hurt ... they feel like two over cooked hard boiled eggs. Throbbing ... throbbing ... THROBBING PAIN! My mouth is dry and furry. My breath smells like a dirty dogs arsehole. My hands are trembling. My lips are sticking to my teeth. PLEASE! I crave some Mexican valium! My anus is bleeding profusely. I took a painful shit and I thought my stool was writhing with worms! But it was just my blurred vision ... Thank GOD! I passed out at my friends pig and chicken farm in Pasadena last night. I woke up this morning with my head in a pile of pig crap and there was a chicken pecking at my leg. Ants crawling all over my body ... FUCKING HORRIBLE! Thanks JD!, you motherfucker! I think I'm getting sick. I think I want to die. I want to vomit but I'm afraid to see what's in my stomach. ... Variations of a recent drawing. Click on them to see large version ...
click here to see the Pshcho Scribble TALK: This week has been one meeting after another with a multitude of motherfuckers. One lying bastard after another. From rude fast talking New York City 'Big Shots' to grade 'B' LA hustlers. Everybody has their hand out and they all say that the other guy is an asshole. AND if I don't move with their idea RIGHT NOW, my world will fall apart in a matter of days. They live life like they're constantly fighting a war ... fuck that. It's people like this, and the madness that exists in their heads, that has helped shape the sorry state of our current reality. Their shallow greediness is a malignant contagion which has spread and proliferated throughout the world. Ethics and honor are a dim memory ... Ruthlessness and guile have replaced integrity. Selfishness has blinded us to the fact that Selfishness IS in itself antiproductive by nature. If people would act in a forthright manner, with honor, we could flourish because we would gravitate towards that which we are most suited ... I remember a time when honesty was a little more prevalent ... a fading memory. Now, because of our selfishness and lack of business ethics, the assholes are in charge. The qualified do not take charge as they should ... the bullies and the conniving take the power through brute force ... And I'm fucking sick of dealing with these motherfuckers ... But that's too bad, cuz right now, that's my job. Here's my words of wisdom for today, and a BIG NEW revelation for you = 'People suck'. I saw this on stileproject ... 'Boy admits in court that he was raped by the family dog' ... You better keep your eye on Fido. HERES a little story about my old family dog.
Click image for today's doodle *** I HATE Monday. Why is it that all the shitballs come out from under the fucking rocks on Mondays? Monday SUCKS. Now I need to go watch some mindless TV show like 'Cops' so I don't keep obsessing on what I would like to do to some of the people that fucking bothered me today. ... 07/22/00 ...
The beginning of a body manipulation fad? *** Here's a magazine that clearly shows where our society is going. Perhaps a herald for bigger and better things to come? ... I hope I will live to see the day when I can have my worn out body parts replaced on an assembly line basis. I'm starting to get very ugly as I grow older and I want a new young look! My ass is getting a little 'cheezy' and I'd really like some of the cheeze scooped out. Hey! This could be a new fad! Why stop at tattoo's and piercings? We could fucking have our bodies surgically altered! Think of it! ... Faces with two noses, 3 eyes, additional ears, all fully functional ... Think HOW HIP would that be!
I would love it if they could give me extra fingers. Six or more fingers per hand would be fucking awesome!. How about an eye in my crotch! Wow, think of the reactions I could get from all the girls!, not to mention the sensual new views I'd be capable of seeing ... although, I might get sick of watching myself taking a crap. I really need to get rid of a few of the multiple chins I've been developing ...
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... 07/20/00 ... From time to time I receive questions from visitors to the museum. Recently I received a questionnaire from a really cool site, the 'SCHOOL OF ASS'. They asked me to participate in a temporary section they have up called '25 questions with 24 webmasters'. It's not going to be posted to their site until next month, but here's parts of it for those of you that may have an interest in my ideas and opinions. I am always anxious to here from you. Click here to send me a letter. Here's three of the questions that I was most interested in answering;
Q: how do you feel about pornography? A: I do this for a living so I think about it a lot ... and I see it every day. Porn is a great way to get off. For some, porn is also an aggrandizement of our species instinctive urges to reproduce, in many cases an obsessive and laughable attempt to elevate an instinctual bodily function to a position of importance and reverence. Many people I know equate sex with art and great wisdom. I sit and watch the porno shoots ... I smell the B.O. and farts and dodge the poop bullets as they fly out of some girls gaping anus when a guy with a 14 inch cock pulls out too fast. I laugh, I cry ... I gaze in stupefied wonder. I have nightmares. Pornography allows a person to avoid the grim realities of sexuality, perhaps the worst being the post-sex obligatory interaction with another human being. I'd rather interact with a VHS cassette or a webpage any time! Our fascination with sexual acts is a simple response to our biological need to reproduce and survive. Sexuality should be categorized with other similar involuntary functions such as eating, sleeping ... or shitting. Pornographers wisely capitalize on these obsessions and turn our biological impulses into cold hard cash. This is great for me! ... I stare with drooling lecherous glee as young naked half witted girls attempt to placate their personal demons by having sex in front of a camera. Porn is especially relevant in our current society because it allows individuals to satiate their needs in a voyeuristic manner, thus avoiding the repercussions of actually having sex with another person, (ie; AIDS, pregnancy, emotional problems). Those that buy into the hype of sexuality run the risk of permanent brain damage. I myself have a fairly large collection of porno, which of course, I never watch ;)
Q: should drugs be legalized? why or why not? A: YES. Well, 'decriminalized' and regulated. I'm talking about removing the profit incentive from the sales and distribution of drugs so there will no longer be any reason for criminal involvement. I have been a narcotics addict. I have witnessed first hand the destructive results of taking drugs ... However, what seems even more destructive are the lives ruined as a result of drug crimes and punishments. The loss of freedom due to incarceration and the fear of drug related violence that permeates the streets is unnecessary. The decriminalization of drugs would not stop people from experimenting with drugs, nothing except the complete unavailability of the substances would do that. But think of this; Without the profit incentive to sell drugs, there would be fewer individuals 'pushing' the product. The sellers of illicit drugs utilize the same marketing strategies to sell their product that so called legitimate business do. The markets are artificially created for drug use when the profits are there to be had by the clever. Kind of like, say, Burger King. There's no real good reason that Burger King is so popular, It's a high fat, low nutrition, greasy loser food. However, it's popular because the originators of this product had the vision to put a positive spin on the fucking things ... They tell us; 'Fast food burgers are cool, and they make you feel good cuz they taste good and you can think about freedom and fun and youth when you eat them' ... and we buy it. Positive propaganda, media Blitzkrieg. Same thing the dealers do with the drugs. Only the drugs sell themselves. Partly due to the mystery that surrounds them by virtue of them being illegal and just plain 'bad'. It's all about money and 'forbidden fruit' ... Take the money and the mystery away and the existing sales structure will fail. The related crimes will drop and the whole deal will change. Drugs and drug counseling should be free to drug addicts. Innocuous drugs like weed should be available to anyone who wants it through independently run distribution centers, just like alcohol is now. This would not end the ruined lives and negative consequences ... but it would sure fucking change things. However, I think there's about as much chance of this happening as there is for all those people down in Hell of getting that ice water they've been asking for all these years.
Q: does politics affect your life in any way? if so, how? A: Yes, of course ... Politics effects us all. Anyone who thinks that politics does not effect them is not seeing the big picture, or not willing to accept a grim truth. The politicians pull the strings and control our lives. The small number of ruthless men who control the money and power in our world control our lives on almost every level. We have been conditioned through their science of propaganda to believe that we are free ... but we are not. We are not completely free in body OR in mind. Everything you do is done within the confines of laws and rules made by those who have decided that they are qualified to make those decisions for you, the 'law makers,' the politicians. With the ever increasing sophistication of mind controlling technologies we will eventually become little more than zombie like puppets to those that twist and manipulate our perceptions of reality. The information disseminated in mass media is controlled by the politicians who say what is acceptable to transmit. Big Brother is alive and well and insidiously controlling your opinions to suit his purposes. Why do you think that our air is still as polluted as it is? We deny the ability to clean it up for the immediate benefit of the rich. The rich control the money, and money controls politics. Do you believe that we have NOT had the ability to create cleaner emissions technologies for cars and factories for many years? Do you suspect that it has something to do with the immediate loss of profits for the few who control the polluting industries? If we have the power to move to cleaner technologies, why do we wait when each day brings us closer to an unalterable path of planetary ruin? This is why; The FEW want to stay rich in the NOW at the expense of the MANY. They will allow you, the young, to live in a future sewer of their waste products. The rich and powerful don't care about tomorrow, they have NO tomorrow! They'll be dead and you will inherit their world of rotting SHIT! They got theirs, so FUCK you! The rain forests are cut down by the thousands of acres each day, (Actual figure: We have destroyed 50% of the worlds rain forests in the past 50 years). Each day new extinctions occur, (Actual current extinction figure: 25,000 species per year. We are living in the largest mass extinction since the dinosaurs.) With the flora and fauna go the hope for curing the diseases that YOU will contract from the pollutants left behind after these selfish bastards are dead! ... The balance of our atmosphere will be irrevocably altered in YOUR future. Your skin will be covered with festering cancers in the future so the fat politicians of today can sip champagne and screw their whores on the fur coats of animals that will become extinct in your lifetime! Who are these people who make millions off the rape of the planet, and lobby against every effort to stop it? The fucking politicians, baby! Does that effect you? Think about it. ... And don't bother voting, it's all rigged! The only way to hold onto any individualism is to question everything ... From the poisonous sugar coated cereal you eat in the morning, to your privacy on the internet. You and I are slaves. We are the wood that burns to warm the feet of our masters; the politicians. FIN
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